Jping

2011-05-10T17:15:00.002+08:00

Writting this entry while sitting alone under my blk, hungry, thirsty and with insane pain in my heart and neck. I have just been chased out of my house.

In my whole life, i have been leading a very simple life. I dun come frm a rich family, not even well to do. My father was a bus driver who only brings home 1000plus every month to support a family of 4 and my mum was a full time house wife. Being brought up in this background, i have learnt to appreciate many things in life.i wasnt complaining at all.

Years later, after quarrels and quarrels, arguments after arguments, it came to a point that my parents couldnt live together anymore and a divorce came right after that. I was devastated as i was only 14 back den and i even had to attend court hearings. I didnt complain either and i pushed myself on and i know life goes on. It was when my mother had to start working and i learnt to be independant.

Everyday after school, i would hang out with my frens and even after that when i reach home, there will still be no one at home. My brother was in army and my mum works in 7-11, so i have to prepare my own dinner and watch the tv alone. Honestly, i felt lonely. But again, i didnt complain.

I started to work part time at the age of 15. I began to realise that living in singapore wasnt easy and worse with a single parent supporting the whole family. So i worked almost everyday after school and began supporting my own expenses. And again, i didnt complain at all, it was to me, a learning journey to be independant.

3 yrs later, the divorce finally came in and we had to move out frm a 4 rm flat to a rented 2 rm in amk. I had graduated frm sec sch back den and was working full time while waiting for ns. I would travel all the way frm my workplace to the new amk flat and paint, drill, screw and do wadever to make it look nice everyday. My brother was busy with uni and mum was busy with work so i had to do everything myself. And again, i didnt complain because it was somewhat my home.

And den i went on to serve my national service and studied at mdis to get my diploma.

Yrs later, i got into contact with thyroid cancer. My life crashed. My gf of 9 months also left me at the very same time. I was in property and had some savings but it all went into the hospital bills. I didnt get any frm my mum because she didnt had much savings also. I pushed on and finally survive thru it.

Today, i found myself a stable job in cimb bank. Although im just a credit card officer, but i have managed to prove myself and i can fetch home on an average 3-4k a month. However, the cancer is back for more. After 2 major operations, i now have a 5 digit bill to clear. The love of my life left me and my mum stressed me hard on giving her money.

It has come to a point that i really cant see where my next step is anymore. Even during my lowest point in life, ppl are giving me pressure. I can be independant but i do need company at times. My bday is coming and 2 days After tat i will be stepping in to the ot again.

Tell me ppl, is it time to give up? Should i still fight on? I am really confused.

2011-05-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

After a hard day work today and many things that have happened recently, i have decided to write this post. I think its the best way to express my thoughts.

Many ppl didnt know that i was suffering frm cancer. Everyone see me smile and laugh everyday but didnt know how i rly feel every night before i go to slp, not knowing whether i can see the world again once i close my eyes. It was a tough battle. And i believe i have alr conquered half of it. Many ppl have been giving me advice on this, telling me nt to give up and to fight. But i will always ask them this qns, wad if you are the one? Can you take it and fight it so easily? Do u know the pain and fear? What have u gone thru to have the rights to reprimand me? The stress of handline a 5 digit hosp bill? In the end, it only comes to the point that, only i can help myself by living everyday as if it is my last. And nt giving up on any chance to be able to survive for another day.

Recently, i finally made up my mind and stepped into the operation theatre, unsure of the outcome. It turns out pretty successful except for the part tat my artery tore and lost almost 35% of my blood. Juggling a broken heart, a physical wound, i was stressed to work even thou i was on mc. Everyday i tell myself, jian ping, its time to pick urself up and show others wad u are made of. However, just when all the positivity hits me, the operation wasnt the end of my cancer life. I was told after a thorough ct scan that there seems to be another tumour in my brain. Chances that i have to step into the ot again is at least a 70% unless chemo works well within these few days. After i got to know about this, i broke down. I blamed god for putting all these on me, even after i fight thru the first 1. But after days of thinking, i realise this is just another obstacle of my life and i believe if i can overcome this, i can overcome anything in the future that comes in my way. I decided to fight. And 25thnmay will be the deciding day.

Failed r/s, health prob, work stress. Do i deserve everything to come on me tgt at once? I dun, and nobody do. Its nt my fault, its nobodys fault. Life is unfair, but its time to make it fair for myself.

If you rly know me, you will know that i put in my 101% for the things i wanna achieve in life, regardless whether is it work, r/s or anything else. Coming frm a broken family, i have learned that if theres no faith and commitment, dun even attempt to step into 1. Therefore everytime i decide on smth, i make sure it works and i make sure i give my all. Which is y it took me so long to get a job also.im not choosy, its just that i dun just go with the flow.

Ppl makes mistake. Infact everyone makes mistakes everyday. Its nt about making how many mistakes but learning from how many mistakes. Frm now on, im gg to accept every mistakes i make and learn from it.

I have my good points and of cos my bad ones. And i always believe that we should be grateful to whoever who treats us good. But im the kind who treats someone who treats me like shit nice. I dun see the point of having an enemy. I have never hated anyone in my life. Because i believe everything and everyone exist for a reason. But that is also probably 1 of the reason y many ppl are taking advantage of me. Im not a saint but i rly just want the ppl around me to be happy.

This is nt an emo post but more like a self reflection for myself, to remind me of wad conclusion and decision that i have come to. I will not give up on my life and i will not give up on anything that i wanna achieve. Failures are unavoildable but without perseverence, there are no success. Good luck to me and good night to everyone.

2010-04-11T16:22:00.002+08:00

Im bloody sick yet blogging. Lol. No choice ah cnnt slp anymore.

Im down with a fever, sore throat and this very irritating bloody painful swollen gum. tsk. make me feel like cutting it off. I NEED TO RECOVER BY TMR, because i wanna meet my cute, sweet and wonderful GF for breakfast. And most importantly, make the 2nd LOVE bento for her. HEHEHE.

Life hasnt been great, in fact it was too stress to handle. Ridiculous workload and limited amount of rest.

The only day to look forward to every week is Friday, When i get my happy pill, i laugh, enjoy, fall in love again and again. Things are looking great between us. I feel as if I can know what she is thinking and she always knows what i am thinking. A 2 =1 feeling. HEHEHE. loves it, loves her.

ANW, im not going to temple next sat anymore. Its been 4 sessions yet nth seems to progress. Utter waste of time. I shall leave it to the young generation. Good luck.

The most anticipated update of the year

2010-03-29T01:47:00.004+08:00

Alright, time to really sit down and blog after a long break since the last post.

Many things happened, my life was like a roller coaster ride, thrilling but scary. However, every single thing that happened and every single decision i made was with no obligations and zero regrets.

Firstly, I decided to step into the property line which not many would. Its a risky step to take but it might also be the step to success. It all depends on the amount of effort I put into it. I am working hard on this.

Secondly, life hasn't been as exciting as before. Friends enlisting into NS, hectic schedules and the lack of strength for extra recreation everyday. Hopefully things will get better in time to come.

The last and most important thing in my life is none other then my cheerful, beautiful, caring princess. She is like the core of my life. Giving me moral support, encouragements and care that is totally indescribable, in a good way of cos. Well I cant say that we don't have any arguments, but we learn even more about each other after every arguments. Its not something anyone can do, and I respect her for her maturity and understanding. She understands how I feel like nobody else does, and always try her very best to make me happy. From love packages to get well gifts, Vans shoes to superman tee, and not to forget the wonderful memories she had engraved in my life.

I thank her for staying by my side even though things are not gonna be easy for us in the future. I will definitely not let her down, I will continue to love her so much and be the best person she will ever need in her life. Trust me, I love you Feeza.

I want to be happier and I am confident that it will happen. I am gonna excel in work, giving my family and Gf the life they deserve. And hopefully when I returns to bloggin the next time, the next post, I have done it.

2010-01-18T03:01:00.002+08:00

Long time no post. Its been like months. Things have changed, times have passed and i think im happy the way things are now.

This is a post for the new year, 2010.

some major happenings:

1. I found a loving gf :)

2. To have Tim join me back like good old days.

3. Started a business, ended a business.

4. Quit lame streetwear.

5. Met many new friends.

As usual, my blog is always meant for rantings and for my own records of happenings. I dun give shit even if theres no readers, cos im a reader of my own writings.

Tats the end of this random post, got work in 3 hrs time. gotta bounce. LOVE TUE

2010-01-01T08:16:00.001+08:00

Same place, same date. New Year, new start. I love you so much :)

2009-12-03T15:13:00.002+08:00

It din work out again :(

I need to persevere. I know shes gonna be the girl of my life. Its time to do something for myself.

2009-05-29T12:23:00.002+08:00

Wed butter factory for terence super sweet "16" lol...wake up la, 26 alr.

Hes still as heavy as ever man, he was so damn dead tat me and skinny kong have to caryy him down to the taxi stand, and before tat to the toilet to let it all out.lol

All in all, i hope he enjoyed that night, because i did. and i did enjoy my night on fri too.

Lastly, its school holidays for sec sch kids alr. Im waiting for a reply, as you promised.

Pics shall be uploaded together with my chalet soon

2009-05-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

Nothing better to do la

01. What have you been doing recently ?
---> Celebration for my 21st and attending redundant classes
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off ?
---> Only when Singtel forces me to.
03. What happened at 10.00am today ?
---> Sleepin
04. When did you last cry ?
---> When I sent my dear Joe off.
05. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter ?
---> Bread. duh~
06. What do you want in your life right now ?
---> money
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood ?
---> umbrella, occasionally.
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed ?
---> My laptop is always on my bed.
09. What bottom are you wearing now ?
---> eh paiseh not branded, dun wan to say.
10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say ?
--->lazy to check
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated ?
---> No need to, it always was.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone ?
---> i only lend ppl.
13. What was the last movie you caught ?
---> Shinjuku Incident
14. What are you proud of ?
---> Being an Nsman
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say ?
---> ehh tis fri 2g bbq wana go mai? (oops, i din go)
16. What was the last song you sang out loud ?
---> Dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai
17. Do you have any nicknames ? What are they ?
---> Yes. "machoist" ---wtf
18. What does your last received text message say ? Who was it from ?
---> sorry tt i cant make it for ur party,Drive u out for supper sooooon to bu chang kk frm xuan
19. What time did you do to bed last night ?
---> 4am?
20. Are you currently happy ?
---> no.cos no money
21. Who gives you best advice ?
---> I dun ask for advise alot
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
---> no.
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
---> no one
24. Is anything bugging you right now ?
---> PCT result
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh ?
---> Gary?
26. Do you wear toe socks ?
---> No
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from ?
---> yan jie
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken ?
---> alr broken down into dust particles
29. What annoys you most in a person ?
---> arrogance
30. Do you have a crush on anyone ?
---> Not at the moment
31. Have you ever done cocaine ?
---> Nope
32. What is the colour of your room ?
---> White
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar ?
---> Hell yea!!
34. Do you believe in the saying 'talk is cheap' ?
---> Talk isnt cheap when Singtel bills you
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed ?
---> me.
36. Who was the last person to hug you ?
---> Classified Info
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed ?
---> Apparently yes. damn
38. Do you have a life ?
---> only when i have money
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't ?
---> When i tried waking up my buddy in camp.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song ?
--->i dun have 1 sia
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream ?
---> Forgot to take note.
42. Last time you smiled ?
---> to the mama shop uncle just now
43. Have you changed this year ?
---> Probably
44. What are you listening right now ?
---> Tonight - Fm static
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this ?
---> Oh wait, i am actually concentrating while doing this?!
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed ?
---> Bullshit
47. Is there a quote you live by ?
---> Do anything but dun get caught?
48. Do you want someone you can't have ?
---> Y not?
49. Have you ever played an instrument ?
---> Guitar of cos
50. What was the worst idea you've had in week ?
---> oh shit, theres too many.
51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm ?
---> watching anime
52. Are you happy with your love life right now ?
---> NO, im serious.
53. What song best describe your love life ?
---> Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love
54. Does the person know that you like him/her ?
---> stop askin.
55. Who always make you laugh ?
---> Even the dumb "Ah Song's" in my class makes me laugh
56. Do you speak other language other than English ?
---> Hokkien lor. oh maybe japanglish
57. Favourite website ?
---> ns.sg
58. What your middle name ?
---> Jian
59. What are you doing tomorrow ?
---> Go school play Street fighter. wad else?
60. What do you think you are like ?
---> Ambitious i should say.
61. Who will you choose to die with ?
---> cant i just die alone?
62. Where have you been today ?
---> MDIS, sumo house
63. What game do you play often ?
---> Street Fighter alpha 3 and sf third strike
64. Who are you missing right now ?
---> many dear frens, be it those overseas or up in heaven
65. If you've to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose ?
---> can both anot?
66. What are you doing right now ?
---> sia la, wad else?
67. Which primary school are you from ?
---> Northland Primary School
68. Name 3 colours that you like ?
---> Silver, Black, Blue
69. What emotion you like to show ?
---> -.-
70. What is your life to you ?
---> cockup la
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do ?
---> put my hair down, sit 1 corner, put on eyeliner and play guitar. SIAO!
72. Who did you last chat in msn today ?
---> Wei Heng
73. Who do you admire most ?
---> Aldof Hitler
74. Which month are you born in ?
---> May
75. How you feel right now ?
---> Bored, irritated.
76. What is the time now ?
---> 2352
77. Where are you now ?
---> Home
78. What colour did you use to dye hair ?
---> Honey Orange
79. Why are you doing this test ?
---> cos Im waiting for my downloads to finish
80. What do you do when you're moody ?
---> Spend money
81. At which age you wish to get married ?
---> 26?27?28?29? Dunno la
82. Who is more important to you ? Girlfriend or friends ?
---> Different situation, different story.
83. Do you think you have enough confidence ?
---> maybe
84. Who is the person you trust the most ?
---> the guy in the mirror
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ?
---> Tats wad i was told
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be ?
---> Got car, career, cash and a loving wife.
87. What is your goal for this year ?
---> Pass interview for CNB and Diploma
88. Do you believe in eternity love ?
---> no.never
89. What feeling do you love most ?
---> Happy
90. Do you really think its Gobal Warming now ?
---> At the rate im sweating, YES.
91. What feeling you hate the most ?
---> The feeling of being betrayed.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
---> Yes
93. Do you believe in god ?
---> Which one? Statues in my temple YES
94. Who cares for you most ?
---> My mum la, who else
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life ?
---> THING = non living thing = my collection of expensive shits
96. What will you bring when you fight ?
---> Street Fighter arcade stick controller
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life ?
---> Giving my 100% trust to certain ppl.
98. What would you feel that on one no longer cares for you ?
---> too bad lor
99. What if your Gf two-timed you ?
---> Wah ho seh ah...i would say she got guts man.
100. What do you want now ?
---> $$$$

2009-05-23T17:56:00.001+08:00

Back from chalet. Freaking shag after 2 nights of hard drinking.lol

Photos and details shall be uploaded soon....

2009-05-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

I think i have to explain some things regarding the last post.

I post because tat guy ran away with debts and zero replies.

I wun post if i can talk face to face (tat means it wasnt about you.)

I dun indicate names(for the sake of his face) but he does view my blog.

I wun disturb someone whom i hvn seen for months.

I have know alot of buggers who i have to deal with almost everyday.
(so please pleaseplease dun get sensitive over things.)

This blog is for my personal rantings and complains. so i see nth wrong in posting sensitive and personal comments.

Pls do contact me via mobile if theres a problem. A post to fight back will makes things worse.
(please refrain from doing so, thanks)

And i value each and every of my frens.

I hope this post explains it clear enough.

2009-05-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

Had a long bus ride to and back from school. Suddenly thought of something.

less den 2 weeks before i reach 21. Time flies and it feels as though i was only 18 yesterday.

I remembered the time when i was still young, trying damn hard to be an adult but only to find out that i was still a small kid.

I guess its just some kind of a stage where everyone goes thru, a stage where ppl tries alot to be an adult, to be recognised. But the feeling totally changes for me now. I wished i was forever a kid.

It seems like i have walked a long way, but its only the beginning of a new stage. The stage with the most obstacles and challenges. like my upcoming career after august.

To my dear frens who are younger den me,

Freedom doesnt comes from being an adult or reaching a certain age. The truth is, ppl have the most freedom when they are still a kid. Cherish all those moments. Freedom is taken away when you become an adult and given back to you when you retire, its a cycle, its life.

2009-05-08T03:00:00.003+08:00

Sorry to those who failed to contact me fpr the past 2 weeks. My phone is down and i cant do anything about it as im kind of broke...so well....

Those who have been invited to the chalet, i will inform u guys the details asap.

Lastly,

Dun think u can hide, if i have to hunt u down, i will hunt u down. And i will make sure you will learn to grow up, act like a man, talk like a man and stop being a pussy like you are now. And if you think YOU can mess with me, i urge you to think again. Dun test my fuckin patience.

2009-04-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

Its a Food and Suay day.....

Had Botak Jones twice today.

Den paid 10 bucks for a freakin glass of teh peng. FUCK!

I gave the auntie 10 bucks and was expecting a change. She said she would be back and i believed.

So i continued enjoying my cheese fries and there goes my 10 bucks. SHE DID NOT RETURN.

I totally forgot about it becos i was really so into the fries...zzzzz..

And the irony is, i even ask my fren when will she be back after she left, den i forget myself.

@#%&@#.....SUAY LA!!!!!!

2009-04-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Its been a tiring week, have da adjust my mind clock to a totally different schedule. though it did allowed me to slp more.

I just realise how some people really do things more den they can handle. And most of them are still either idling around or have no achievements at all. Seriously they just dun know that there are no master of all.

Being a Singaporean, i think there are times where one have to be realistic, its a country where the level of competitions is high and the only way to overcome it is to actually find something you would really like to do and concentrate on it. Rather then having a general knowledge of many things, but master of none.

NATO is something i learned that is really helpful during my army days. It stands for "no action, talk only". It actually applies to alot of ppl i know and sometimes even myself.

I dun really want to hate or dislike anyone but im really wondering wad has the society and kids gone to? Kids thinking they are all grown up when they reach a certain age and uncivilised barbarians all over the streets who are too full of themselves.

Get a life people, Humble is always the key to be a grown up and its never your age.

2009-04-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

School starts tmr. Lesson 1 = STANLEY TAN, wad a "nice" start of a new term.

Mum still in hospital. Din stayed there for long, i had a bad headache myself.

For those who tried to contact me but couldnt, im really sorry. Especially to Lemon, dun worry my mum is coping well with the condition now. Thanks for asking.

2009-04-16T23:43:00.002+08:00

Day 3 of my mum hospitalised.

She had a very big dressing under the chin, near the neck area. Its filled with blood as the cut has not been stitched back yet. Its to allow the paste to clear before closing the cut. Well it looks damn painful and she somehow wasnt able to eat almost anything. Until we figured that she might be able to eat some soya beancurd which was a relieve.

Thanks to all frens and family for visiting my mum and giving her the support she needed during this period of time. It will still be awhile till she is discharged frm ttsh. It hurts alot to see her in this condition. And hopefully she can recover fast.

2009-04-16T00:47:00.002+08:00

Results is out, my mum needs to go for surgery. Its gonna be a long stay in ttsh i guess. Im kinda tired, both mentally and physcially. But i will just persevere, to fulfill my duty as her son. Gonna stay by her side these few days, so sorry to ppl whom i have planned to meet.Hope you guys understand.

2009-04-14T23:55:00.003+08:00

This is seriously frightening. My mum is lying in the hospital now. Waiting for scanning.

Hope nth goes wrong. Im scared, really scared. I hv got no mood fo other stuffs now..

2009-04-14T01:00:00.002+08:00

I need to cut my hair, its in a mess right now.

so yea, much to do tmr. AMK to Town to Seng Kang to AMK.

Gonna slp early today. Ciao

2009-04-11T00:52:00.002+08:00

I had my reasons, i have my stand. Its for the sake of happiness, not for the sake of hiding.
Again, i do things not to have other appreciate, i do things for myself to appreciate. Im all grown up, i guess i have more life experiences.People dun enlighten me, i enlighten myself thru my experience in life.

Anyway, went to meet Heng for dinner den met Fad to pass him the tees. Suay la him, stay tampines yet have to go jurong fire station everyday.haha.Oh and asri got a hayabusa, rich bastard.lol

Meeting Alex tmr.Finally.lol. And its so rare that he actually initiated to ask me out. so well. 9 years of friendship, gone thru thick and thin. Wish him the best as he goes thru his officer life in army.

2009-04-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

Plaza Sing today to watch movie...

After that met up with Heng to kia kia...

Found that tmr Stjames will br more happening, so decided to go tmr. But only if im feelin ok, kind of having headache now..

And shiok, i connected my laptop to my tv and is really enjoying the axxo movies...lol...

2009-04-07T01:14:00.001+08:00

x-large cap is here...more to come. more cash to fly.

Still choosing to go DBL O or st james on wed...hmmmm

2009-04-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

Movie today with family @ amk hub.

Surprised that they actually do accept mdis card to get discount.lol

still having swollen eyes, so have to reject wei jia and ivan to dbl O.sian.

But i will be going next week for sure.Unless Flower boy or wei jia tua me la.lol. well anyone interested can join us.But entrance pay urself ah.lol

tmr will be the day i get my x large cap, yeah.

2009-04-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

checked out iluma today. Damn big with a nice arcade.lol. time to hit the cinemas on thurs alr.

saw we r the champions tee at bape@play. damn tempted, but well, some ass clown backout again on my gucci belt deal so no money.

Double O tmr? thinking of saving cash though....hmmmmm.....

2009-03-31T00:17:00.000+08:00

COMING SOON.....Im lovin it

2009-03-28T23:51:00.001+08:00

lazy to blog lately.

Went Liang court and suntec today.

HeadPorter pouch and x large cap on the way.

Tats all for the day. Bye

2009-03-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

Exams over. Holiday mood. Yeah.

2009-03-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

Nothing happening these 2 days.

All i did was eat, slp , eat, slp. oh and i totally forgotten about mugging.damn. exam is really near man.

Dinner with keith at yishun today.lol. 5 bucks for a damn big plate of chicken chop but not really nice though.

Days have passed. I was hoping that i could get over everything. Guess i just could'nt.

That just proves how important this is to me.

Somebody tell me wad to do..I still feel so lost....

2009-03-19T03:46:00.003+08:00

Look im not wasted at all.haha. come home still can blog lei.

DBL O, fuckin happening.lol

Great crowd(except the 3 ah guas), great DJ and dirt cheap drinks.

Shots after shots went down into my body, no pain at all, as in no pain in my wallet la. Where else to find $3 shots man.lol.

Got in there early and theres like only 3 ppl on the dance floor, the rest of the ppl all slacking and drinking. So we decided to start the fire.haha.And it was freaking house trance at that time.woohoo.

Then came this guy who came to me and started a "dance battle".Great moves there but i guess i din lose out much la.Suddenly got the moves coming today sia. Great guy, great personality.he even treated me 1 housepour.hehe.thanks ah.

Everything was great except some ass clowns started to step on my melborne like nobodys business.And somemore all ang mohs.Bloody kukus.Got yellow hair big fuck ah? lol. Got so fed up with 1 of them that i actually kicked him with another leg.I DUN CARE.haha.

Alright, fun is over. Now i have to go back to mugging mood again. Exams on the way.Looking forward to my holidays.

2009-03-17T23:44:00.004+08:00

Woke up late today, as expected.

Gary came to my homie in noon time to have his ipod touch jailbreaked. And damn it, he actually got that 16gb ipod touch for a 100 bucks.That dirt cheap seriously.Lucky bastard eh.lol

Well i din expect anything from him as i actually helped him willingly but he so decided to treat me to dinner. Well thanks yea, i just added some pounds to my already growing fat stomach.haha.

Tmr mugging session with friends @ tea gardens, hopefully we will learn something instead of slacking eh.haha.

And comes the great wednesday night, gonna catch some love @ DbL O man, dirt cheap drinks, great music ,its girls nite, wads more to expect?
Yea its gonna be a tequila night for me.lol. Nobody can resist $3 shots man and im like gonna spend 30 bucks on drinks? Do the math ,lol. I know im gonna be so wasted.Hopefully not.

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2009-03-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

Study, bike, study, bike. i have tired myself out once again.I need to enjoy, just for a day.

So Im looking forward to wednesday, the night when ladies are out to play.Yea, and i will be shuffling my way to Double O.Wohooo!! So see you there Ms Door Bitch.

Tmr shall be a peaceful day. Sleeping all the way, resting my mind and soul.
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As strong as it seems, as vulnerable as it can get.

Im on observation mode, please dun let me down.
Or i will take that trust away.
Dun ever test my water.

2009-03-16T02:20:00.001+08:00

No pics, no happenings, no nothing. Life is simple today.

Happy Birthday to Eric.

2009-03-15T02:25:00.003+08:00

I am old but not old enough.

There are still many things that i might not understand. If its good, i take it as a compliment or an achievement. If its bad, its a lesson and a punishment.

I might not be supersticious, but i believe in karma.

Ppl who have know me long enough would have know how fuckup i was during my sec sch days. And those who stayed with me through these years will also know how much i have changed.

Sometimes i wonder, do i change for myself or do i change for others?

I seriously dunno. But if its good, i dun think it matters.

These few days of being alone has made me learn alot. Too much to explain actually.

If you care for someone, it doesnt mean you have to show it. Showing your care, doesnt mean that you really mean it. If you really mean it, he/she will eventually know it.

I will continue to care, but maybe without showing it. Appreciation is no longer in my dictionary. What matters is the effort.

2009-03-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

Ok i will just say im lifeless, totally.

No school for the next 10days and im gonna like stay home almost everyday to mug and mug and mug and mug..Bull crap...

Yea the gd thing is Im finally gonna start booking my bike preps again.Guess the rain wont be as bad for the next few weeks alr.Hopefully so.

When you start staying at home the whole day and find yourself nth better to do, you start trying all sorts of things, yea and thats wad happened to me today.

1st, i think i am gonna become some anime otaku soon cos i actually watched like 4 hrs of anime. -.-"

2ndly, I freaking rip off my old levis 512 and customise it like a fenom crush jeans.( eh but i think it looks better den normal fenom la,lol) Well that took me more den 5hrs and not done yet.

So wads gonna happen tmr? Eat,slp, mug, anime, rip jeans. I guess thats gonna be my life for quite some time...So can any kind hearted soul come rescue me and bring me go town walk walk pls.......

2009-03-13T11:52:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder...What the hell is caring and sharing?

Maybe its just the older you get, the more kind of questions you start asking yourself.

I was ever told by some fortune teller that i was born to suffer, have a bad life and i am those who have to work very hard all my life.

Well, it didnt came true at first, but i am starting to feel that its quite true as i get older.

Backstabbed, made used, failed relationships, failed friendships, broken family, broken finger, kidney infection, well i think i can just say everything happens to me la.

I am not as healthy as i look and i am also not as unfriendly as i look too.lol.

Perseverence is what i need the most now. To strive hard for my studies and to improve my relationships with my family and friends, no matter how much they dun trust me. I guess thats just life.

2009-03-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

Dunno why i have been skipping class recently.Maybe i just dun find the need to go listen to pointless lectures. Afterall, today is stanley's class, the worst of all.

So i stayed home the whole day.And came Anna, Auntie shirley and Ah Choo, some old collegues of my old workplace, popular, also my mum's collegue la.

So we talk and talk about everything under the sun.(mature topics included)Wth, ruin my innocent mind.lol.

Had steamboat for lunch and was full like hell. Love balachan chili man.haha.

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Things i found out about myself today.

Maybe i have been getting all worked up about some stuffs which is why i made the situation worse. Doing things when i know it doesnt helps which was very contridicting. Maybe Im the one who brought all the troubles to myself. Well, i hope it isnt to late to realise that.

Lastly, My sincere condolences to Tim and his family. Hope you are coping well with the situation, I will always be there for you when you need me.

2009-03-11T00:28:00.004+08:00

Same freakin bored day.

School was redundant in the morning,i was late for 20mins and the whole lesson was only like 1 hr? easy money man, dumb lecturers.You guys get few Ks per month for conducting 1hr lectures? What shit is this seriously and dun forget we are somehow ur source of income.

What really pisses me off is that bird lecturer who pointed at me and said i wasnt listening and was using my laptop. So what happens when i get pissed off? She really got it from me, i was like "wah, you can see my screen ah? bloody hell, i looking through the slides right?" den came 1 min of silence...damn you seriously, dun ever assume without knowing the facts.

Seems like a boring day but my blood was boilng all day. First is the bloody lecturer den came my mum. Scolding me for using the house phone for like 5mins? Wth seriously. nah not gonna heck it already.

Met Keith at night since he was near amk. Slacked abit and he was like wondering wad the heck happened to my miserable life.haha. Well, some things just dun go the way you want it to be.Yea and i did whacked alcohol that day, just in order to slp...dun believe sua.lol

Hot days ahead, exams on the way. Gonna rest my body and soul...

"Everything happens for the right reason, you just got to believe."
^ I never believed in this...got to believe my ass.

2009-03-09T21:45:00.003+08:00

Class test in the morning. I really love how this test works man.lol.

The test was conducted using computers and in the end everyone was like using google and msn to get the answers.haha. No wonder they say MDIS confirm pass 1.With dumb lecturers like Jai, everything is possible man...oops sorry, you bloody bird.lol.( not forgetting Stanley, the google bird)

Finally done with the guestbook assignment and submitted, seriously damn irritating. You will never wanna try doing javascript while you are in a foul mood. Thats wad i did and almost ended up slaming my notebook. -_-"

PCT lesson tmr morning...gonna see another bird lecturer again...and im still wondering how much i got for the assignment 2, plagarism 36%. Seriously screw the Safeassign system man.

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Rainy days fills me with thoughts, I ain't dumb and aint stupid. I just could'nt give up and i never will. I hope i will see what i believe someday. With that, i have taken off my egoism, being as apologetic as i can get. If heaven is nice to me, my hardwork shall eventually pay off, hopefully soon.

2009-03-09T21:29:00.002+08:00

Fenom crush 8 up for sale soon...be on the lookout...
Price?
nth less den 1k, you should know the shit eh?

2009-03-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

Nth much today...

Went Novena with wei heng to get lobster curry bread in the evening, Yes curry and lobster and it tasted damn gd.

Can someone pls pls help me with my java script? Im really going crazy because of it alr...

Days have passed, many things have happened and i thought i had all the answers.Well, i guess i was wrong afterall.

And truth to be told, I really miss you. Pls forgive me.

2009-03-08T16:40:00.002+08:00

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2009-03-08T13:22:00.004+08:00

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2009-03-07T19:07:00.003+08:00

Decided to start anew.

Im trying to make up for the past.

Im not gonna continue to degree level anymore.

Reason being its really unaffordable for me.

And therefore i have decided to sign with Central narcotics as a narcotics officer but after my diploma.

Just hoping my health and studies will get better in no time.